Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Happy Ending with A Call You Later

Well this is my last mental health awareness post. I wanted to thank everyone for reading and being there this whole month! It really meant a lot to me, this is definitely an important issue. Thanks again. I really do love my readers.

Here is my last mani. Please forgive the horrible pictures but I am on my ipad and the camera is not that great. I am wearing Sinful Colors Happy Ending with Call You Later on the accent nail. I love the names together. A little dirty, but fitting for the end.

As always much love,
Holly <3

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

MHAM Day 12: Guest Post Nothing but Nail Polish


I'm doing this post for my friend Holly from one of the groups I'm in on Facebook!

This mani is for Mental Health Awareness Month.

So for this mani I used Sally Hansen Going Green and topped it with Nfu-Oh 56.

 I love love love this combo but who doesnt love flakes?


 Sally Hansen Going Green

Sally Hansen Going Green opted with NFU-Oh 56


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Saturday, May 26, 2012

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MHAM Day 11: Opi Just Spotted the Lizard

This is one of the last manis for Mental Health Awareness. I lost two followers after my last post. I was a little hurt. I got over it though. I am writing these posts, not for followers, but in the hopes of helping someone. Making someone not feel alone. You wanna know what I think the main cause of suicide is? Silence and shame. We are made to stay silent about how we feel and what we think. We are made to feel shame about the thoughts that go through our head. We are supposed to keep them quiet, never expose them. Don't talk about those things. People feel awkward can't handle them, so they walk away, while ridiculing and judging.  You know what happens when all that shame and the thoughts we are forced to keep in our heads build up? Well. I don't have to tell you. You already know. You see it in the news. How many young kids killed themselves for being bullied last year? My one wish is that people would be more open about depression and thoughts of suicide. That the topic would not be so taboo and stigmatized. You have no idea how many lives it might one day save. 

I will not write about my experiences today, apparently I offend. LOL. Though I will invite you to email me or ask questions about depression and struggles with bipolar disorder. My email is in one of the tabs up there. Or you can comment on this blog post. I am very open. If you suffer from BPD and feel alone, or depression feel free to talk to me. I am usually around. But this is the second to last post for Mental Health Awareness Month. 

My mani today is two coats of OPI Just Spotted the Lizard from their just released Spiderman Collection. I am not a fan of OPI, but I have to say that this is quickly becoming one of my all time favorite colors. OMG, it is so unique and crazy beautiful. I am so in love with it. It went on so easily and there was no mess. I love that with light colors. Ok look at the pictures and drool. There are several dupes...a Chanel Peridot and a Gap one...but I dont have a name. LOL...sorry...I'm sure you can google...:)

OPI Just Spotted the Lizard in the sun 2 Coats
I love this duo-chrom. It goes from green-blue-gold.
In the shade
I kept moving my fingers around to try to get the different colors. 
*drool*

If you want more info on Mental Health go to Nami.org or MHA.net 
If you have an emergency and feel like you might hurt yourself. TELL SOMEONE!!! Call 911. Speak out. Do not be afraid. Trust me. I have been there. Help is a good thing. 

As Always Much Love
<3 Holly




Monday, May 21, 2012

MHAM Day 10: China Glaze In the Lime Light

I was diagnosed as bi polar 12 years ago, during my freshman year of College. Something terrible happened on my 18th birthday and I believe that was the trigger to how everything started going down hill. I struggled the whole of my freshman year. I don't think I slept at all. If I did I did not sleep before 6 in the morning. I never slept in my bed and I had terrible nightmares. So basically, I was uber depressed, scared and manic for a year until  the end of frosh year. I really haven't  told many people this, but I feel I need to because I believe in being open and honest about depression and suicide. At the end of the year, I tried to hurt myself. I tried to kill myself one night in my dorm room. Well, some of you might not be religious, but I believe in Jesus with my whole heart, though at this time, I was in "angry-at-God-mode." Before I was able to go through with hurting myself, I clearly heard a voice in the back of my head. A soft, "I love you," and I knew it was God telling me he was there, and that everything was going to be ok. God re-saved me that night. 

I left the room and got help. I ran to my best friend and told her how I felt. That was the first time I sought professional help. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to to. It was embarrassing, though not unexpected. Everyone could see this coming. It was sad because my friends finally told me they couldn't help me anymore. They wanted to, but I needed help they couldn't provide. They were right. That night I finally saw that it was time to get real help. With time, I would even come to see that there was no shame in it. I am even here to tell you that there is NO shame in getting or asking for help. The only thing that matters is staying alive. Surviving. Keeping on breathing. 

Sometimes when I have a panic attack, I have to focus on each breath. Because that is all I can do. I count every single breath, because that is how long into the future I can see. One breath, two, three. The most important thing is to keep going. Keep counting. Let the air fill your lungs full up then let it out, with all your fears. Just let them out. Push them away. Focus on what is real. Surround yourself with the real. What surrounds you? A door? A book? A window? A tree? Everything and anything that is real in your life. Focus on details and let the "unreal" float away. Push the scary monsters and thoughts (I call them many things) away. Let them float away with each breath. Soon, you will be surrounded by a grounded reality and you will have made it through the storm. 

I will continue tomorrow. :-/ My struggle with medication. Now on to the mani!

Today's mani features China Glaze's In the Lime Light, 2 coats over Zoya Purity. In the Lime Light is a bright neon green. It is pretty summery and I think it is pretty great. I always have a hard time with white, so I hated using it as a base coat. However, white really does make Neons brighter and makes them more opaque in less coats. I did have a problem with my middle finger, the green pulled on my base coat, and I had to redo the whole nail. I wanted to make this mani a little different so added little green jewels. That is the extent of my nail art talent. They actually stayed on! :)
China Glaze in the Lime Light 2 Coats over 1 Coat Zoya Purity
In the Lime Light in the Sun
Neon Green with light and dark green Jewels

Here is a song I like by Nicki Minaj called Fly, I dunno I am not a Nicki fan but I love this song. The lyrics are pretty awesome. (to watch the video you have to click the link which will direct you to youtube.com)


"Everybody wanna try to box me in
Suffocating every time it locks me in
Paint their own pictures then they crop me in
But I will remain where the top begins
Cause I am not a word, I am not a line
I am not a girl that can ever be defined"



If you want more info on Mental Health go to Nami.org or MHA.net 
If you have an emergency and feel like you might hurt yourself. TELL SOMEONE!!! Call 911. Speak out. Do not be afraid. Trust me. I have been there. Help is a good thing. 

As Always Much Love
<3 Holly




Wednesday, May 16, 2012

MHAM Day 9: FLOAM!

This is day nine in my Mental Health Awareness Manicures. Today, I am wearing my special special polish FLOAM. I was lucky enough to nab one on Ninja Polish.com and have not used it because I love it so much. But this is a special occasion so I decided to swatch it and show my readers. Can I just say I am in love? I don't know what everyone is talking about, it was pretty easy to apply. Though it did dry a little gritty. But I don't mind at all. It reminded me of colorful cork board for the nails. I LOVE IT! It does dry matte, so if you want it to be shiny just add a top coat. Gelous will keep it from being gritty. Though, Gelous takes a long time to dry. 

(3 Coats of Floam, drool.....I love this toy....er Polish)
(Floam in the Sun)
(Floam in the Shade!)
LOL, this so looks like cork board....but I love it.
It dries a little gritty, so I put a coat of Out the Door. 

If you want more info on Mental Health go to Nami.org or MHA.net 
If you have an emergency and feel like you might hurt yourself. TELL SOMEONE!!! Call 911. Speak out. Do not be afraid. Trust me. I have been there. Help is a good thing. 

As Always Much Love
<3 Holly


Monday, May 14, 2012

Target Beauty Bag

I got a Spring Target Beauty Bag free. Every now and then Target has free samples on their site, and one of them is their beauty bag. There have been three, I have been lucky enough to get two. Below are pictures of the latest one. The bag was awesome block stripes in Pink and Red, and inside was Shampoo by Pantene, Neutrogena Facial Cleanser, Nivea Lotion, and Simple Cleansing Wipes. There was also a huge coupon book full of coupons for beauty products. I absolutely love this free sample program. I have to say Target is amazing for doing it. These are all products I have been dying to try. Simple products are new and pricey and I wanted to sample them first, and now I can. 
(Spring Target Beauty Bag)
(Simple Cleansing Facial Wipes)
(Pantene, Neutrogena, Nivea)

Below is the beauty bag I got this winter. The samples were a lot smaller. Most were samples of Shampoo. There were Pond make-up removing wipes. I love the bag tho. I use it to hold all of my Burt's Bees. 

Anywho, As Always Much Love,
<3 Holly


Saturday, May 12, 2012

MHAM Day 8: Guest Post Got Polish?

It is my honor and pleasure to be writing this guest post for my dear friend, Holly.  This is my first guest post ever and it couldn't be more appropriate for me to be writing this in support of a cause that is so dear to both her heart and mine, Mental Health Awareness Month.  I have suffered from clinical depression my entire life.  It is a near-constant struggle and something I wouldn't wish upon anyone.  Having to deal with a mental illness is difficult enough.  To combine that with the shame imposed by much of society results in a nearly unbearable situation.  Hopefully through campaigns like Holly's to educate and inform people not only about mental illness but the stigma attached to those who suffer, society as a whole will be more tolerant and, dare I hope, supportive to those who struggle every day.

Now, on to the mani.  I recently went to Sally Beauty Supply with a $10 off a purchase of $20 or more coupon that I received form my birthday month.  (I'll be, *gasp*, 39 on May 10th.)  I also had a $5 off receipt coupon from renewing my membership in the Sally Beauty Club (which, for the $5 annual charge is MORE than worth it).  I wasn't sure if I could use both coupons in one transaction but, huzzah, I could!  I walked out with FIVE polishes and a tote bag for a grand total of seven dollars and change!  Among my purchases were several hot off the presses Finger Paints neons, including Silkscreen Green.  Since green is the color of Mental Health Awareness, I thought that would be a perfect choice for this mani.  I decided to combine it with another Finger Paints polish, Twisted, one of their awesome limited edition flaky top coats.  Here are the results:
The bottles

Three coats of Silkscreen Green topped with one coat of Twisted, shot indoors, with flash.

Three coats of Silkscreen Green topped with one coat of Twisted, shot outdoors, no flash.

The formula on Silkscreen Green was a bit challenging.  It was thick and required three coats to even approach opacity, not to mention it took FOR-EVER to dry.  However, I really love the results.  If you're willing to put in the effort and have patience (not my strongest point), it's worth it.  Twisted was much easier to use and dried relatively smoothly.  (I'm not fond of rough finishes.)  Overall, I really love this look.  I'm just hoping that the other neons won't be a difficult to work with.

If you enjoyed this post, I'd certainly love it if you would visit and follow my blog, Got Polish?  Thanks to Holly for allowing me this opportunity to share with you. 

xoxo,
K


Friday, May 11, 2012

MHAM Day 7: Color Club Holiday Splendor

I'm sorry, I don't have much to say today, feeling a little down. Missing my mom a lot. So, I will just get to the nails. Today, is one of my favorite green glitters from Color Club called Holiday Splendor. It has holographic glitter in a green base. It is amazing. It did chip pretty quickly, but most glitters chip fast on my nails. 
(Color Club Holiday Splendor 2 Coats, 1 Coat Out the Door, Natural Lighting)
This is one of my favorite glitters. 
(Holiday Splendor with Flash, I tried capturing the glitter)
(Holiday Splendor in Low Light, I was able to get some of the sparkle)

If you want more info on Mental Health go to Nami.org or MHA.net 
If you have an emergency and feel like you might hurt yourself. TELL SOMEONE!!! Call 911. Speak out. Do not be afraid. Trust me. I have been there. Help is a good thing. 

As Always Much Love
<3 Holly


Thursday, May 10, 2012

MHAM Day 6: Tape Mani

Two announcements, One today is my awesome friend Kari' Birthday. She is from over at Got Polish? Happy Birthday Karbear! Hope you have an awesome one. Two, I totally forgot, but the 5th was my 1 year blogaversary!!! Woohoo! One year already. Go me. 

Mental Illness is such a broad term. I am sure a lot of people wonder what exactly "Mental Illness" means. Or moreover, what disorders are characterized as mental illnesses. Here is a list of some Mental Illnesses from Nami.org:
There are so many disorders classified as Mental Illness, I can't help believing that everyone in this country has been affected in one way or another. Whether personally or by someone you know, I believe everyone has dealt with mental illness. That is why it is so hard for me to believe that we are not more aware and sensitive to the issues brought about by Mental Health. I guess today's question to my readers is, How has mental illness affected you? What have you learned? Has it made you more sensitive to the difficulties the mentally ill have to deal with daily?

Today, I attempted my second tape mani, ever. The first time I tried this mani the results were horrible, the tape smudged the nail polish. Today, I my pointer finger was the only minor mishap. Sorry for the messiness, but Holly seemed to have stained my fingers and it was hard to get all of the green off. I used both Finger Paints Comet's Collar and Wet N Wild's Sage in the City as my base colors. They are pretty similar I could hardly tell the difference what fingers they were on. Then I used the skinny tape I bought on Ebay to make some random design and painted over with Zoya Holly. 
Tape Mani, 1 Coat Zoya Holly over, 1 Coat of Comets Collar on pointer and ring finger, 1 Coat of Sage N the City on Middle and Pinky.
(Forgive messiness I am not a nail art pro.)

If you want more info on Mental Health go to Nami.org or MHA.net 
If you have an emergency and feel like you might hurt yourself. TELL SOMEONE!!! Call 911. Speak out. Do not be afraid. Trust me. I have been there. Help is a good thing. 

As Always Much Love
<3 Holly




Monday, May 07, 2012

MHAM Day 5: Guest Post LuvMyLacquer

Hello! My name is Jessica and today I will be guest posting for Holly. It is such an honor to be guest posting for a friend during a month that means alot to both of us. Mental illness runs deep in my family and I am thrilled to be able to do a green manicure to commemorate Mental Health Awareness Month. Recently, I created a manicure for Autism Awareness Month and Holly loved it so much that I decided to recreate it for her.


I began my manicure with a base of Essie Grow Faster. The accent finger was done using a base of Jordana White. I sponged the tip of my nail with Bettina Green Apple and used Bettina Mojito to stamp on a lovely little couple using Cheeky image plate CH29 and the hearts from Cheeky image plate CH15. These images were used to symbolize that everyone deserves to be loved, no matter what their disability or illness is. There are alot of stigmas put on people who have an illness and I just feel like everyone, as long as you have a good heart, should not be denied of finding true love.


The rest of my nails were water marbled using Green Apple and Mojito. I finished this mani with a coat of Color Club top coat. Holly, I hope you like this manicure and that your readers do, too! I had alot of fun recreating it for you. If you would like to see more of my work, come on over and visit my blog, LuvMyLacquer (http://luvmylacquer.blogspot.com/). Have a great day everyone, xo!



Sunday, May 06, 2012

MHAM Day4: GOSH Golden Dragon

Sorry I don't have much to say today. Today is the first anniversary of my mother's death. I am in low spirits. I have pretty much been in mourning for a year. She was my best friend and I don't know how to let go. 

Anywho, here is Gosh's Golden Dragon. I love this color, its is a Green/gold color and I love it. 

GOSH Golden Dragon
Gosh Golden Dragon- 2 Coats

Golden Dragon in Direct sunlight, it was hard to capture.

If you want more info on Mental Health go to Nami.org or MHA.net 
If you have an emergency and feel like you might hurt yourself. TELL SOMEONE!!! Call 911. Speak out. Do not be afraid. Trust me. I have been there. Help is a good thing. 

As Always Much Love
<3 Holly